I have come to the conclusion that men are a strange species. It is almost as though they spend every second of the day scanning their surroundings for a potential girlfriend (or hook up). I mean sure, women do this to an extent, but I know that I for one do not look at every guy I meet as potential. Granted, I have a partner, but even when I didn't I was never obsessed with guys!!!
In the last 6 months I have felt almost inundated with offers from various people (I say people because it included one female...) and I have noticed that when it comes to dating, men are not humans, in actual fact, they lose all of their higher order thinking and what you see is the pheromones (sorry if that is spelt wrong). It is this that causes the charm, the chattiness, the eagerness to impress, the clinginess, the stupid stunts and the animosity towards other male contenders.
But it isn't all a bad thing... I mean think about animals. How good must it feel for the female to know that two men want the privelage of being "intimate" with her so bad that they will fight to the death for the right. She must feel pretty special. So I guess it is the same thing with humans. Ok, so men don't fight to the death, and they are not exactly ONLY fighting for the privelage of intimacy (although in most cases it will ultimately end that way should he be truly successful) but nevertheless, they will do nearly anything to get the gal.
This leads me onto my dear Antony. Now he knows I love him and that no one else could ever receive a glance, because he's everything I want and all the mushy stuff, and he knows all this. However, when he knows that I am being pursued (we're still using animal language here) he becomes very defensive. He is not happy that another male is trying to move in on his property. So his first response is usually one of passive aggression towards the other (thankfully not all of the higher order thinking left, otherwise blood would be shed), then it becomes a mood of protectiveness, then finally, one of extreme affection.
At the end of the day, the Alpha male can rest knowing that his female is still in his territory. He knows that he must rejuvinate his strength for he never knows what kind of opponent tomorrow may bring.
At the end of the day, the Chosen female rests not fully comprehending why her male is being so defensive when she only has eyes for him, but does not bother questioning it, rather watches as her male goes to battle to prove his love for her.
And the crazy thing is... we're talking about humans here!
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Beautiful
Since I finished school, I have been doing a lot of reflecting on adolescence (even though I'm still in it for another 2.5 years grr) and school and I guess womanhood and how truly valuable it is.
I think both the church and secular society has completely missed the point of what it means to be a woman. I think God created Eve and her daughters to be beautiful, desirable, lovely, captivating. So let's think about this. Beauty... sure, we see the cultural notions of beauty. Tall, thin etc and it is the goal of many women to be this, which is why you can seriously increase sales by using the "fat free" claims. But anyway, most women don't fit the stereotype of media beauty and consequently doubt themselves and I find it sad. The other way to consider beauty is what many churches and motivational groups do and make claims that beauty is nothing to do with the physical, it's all who you are. So society can really be broken up into the women who strive to be physically beautiful and women who forget about physical beauty in the search for inner beauty. But here is something to consider... maybe God wants us to be both.
I think a woman is most beautiful when she knows that she is desired and is playing an irreplaceable role in whatever she is doing. For example, I know that I personally feel most whole and exude the most "inner" beauty when I am in the company of Antony. Why? Because I know that he desires me, that he is captivated by me physically and emotionally. Great news is that we don't need a man for this, because we have Jesus.
Personally, I am sick of seeing women at church hide behind old hairstyles in an attempt to not be noticed or because they feel inadequate compared to magazine girls. Sure, if they are comfortable how they are, that's great and I certainly do not condone women being over the top, I guess I am simply saddened to see beautiful women hide because they are afraid or have been wounded in the past. I am sick of seeing women hide behind their business and not giving others a chance to simply get to know them. Think of Mary and Martha... Jesus did not want to know about how clean the house was or how well the women could cook, he simply wanted to know them. To be in the presence of beautiful women. So why do church women spend so much time doing the chores and "pleasing" everybody?
My next gripe is when women want to do a man's job. Now I am all for equality and bla bla bla but seriously, men want to be strong, to be capable and who are we to stop them?
Imagine, a society where women had the balance between physically caring for themselves to be attractive and having a calmness, compassion and strength that makes a beautiful soul. Imagine these women were valued not because of the things they did, but because of their very presence. Imagine our men were strong and capable. They wanted to care for, desire and love their ladies, and the ladies loved it. God created man and women to need each other. Adam needed Eve as much as she needed him. Women say they can do anything they don't need a man... that is pure selfishness because our men actually need us.
For so many years I have been afraid that I too may actually be beautiful. It was a word that I thought too strong to use for myself. I am learning however, that God created me, the Daughter of Eve to be a reflection of the persona of God himself. Woman is God's beauty in life form. Man is God's strength in life form. So you know what, I will not be afraid to be vulnerable, I will let people see a calm and passionate soul. I will allow people to enjoy my company, desire my presence so that I may be a true reflection of a loving God. And the cool thing is, every woman can be that without being a 1950's housewife. That is ultimately what a lot of us are scared of, that vulnerabilty and submission is only accomplished by being the good wife, good mother, get no say lady. In fact, you can be beautiful no matter what you do. Ask God what it means.
"Am I lovely?" says a little girl to her Daddy "Yes, my Princess, you are MORE than lovely!"
I think both the church and secular society has completely missed the point of what it means to be a woman. I think God created Eve and her daughters to be beautiful, desirable, lovely, captivating. So let's think about this. Beauty... sure, we see the cultural notions of beauty. Tall, thin etc and it is the goal of many women to be this, which is why you can seriously increase sales by using the "fat free" claims. But anyway, most women don't fit the stereotype of media beauty and consequently doubt themselves and I find it sad. The other way to consider beauty is what many churches and motivational groups do and make claims that beauty is nothing to do with the physical, it's all who you are. So society can really be broken up into the women who strive to be physically beautiful and women who forget about physical beauty in the search for inner beauty. But here is something to consider... maybe God wants us to be both.
I think a woman is most beautiful when she knows that she is desired and is playing an irreplaceable role in whatever she is doing. For example, I know that I personally feel most whole and exude the most "inner" beauty when I am in the company of Antony. Why? Because I know that he desires me, that he is captivated by me physically and emotionally. Great news is that we don't need a man for this, because we have Jesus.
Personally, I am sick of seeing women at church hide behind old hairstyles in an attempt to not be noticed or because they feel inadequate compared to magazine girls. Sure, if they are comfortable how they are, that's great and I certainly do not condone women being over the top, I guess I am simply saddened to see beautiful women hide because they are afraid or have been wounded in the past. I am sick of seeing women hide behind their business and not giving others a chance to simply get to know them. Think of Mary and Martha... Jesus did not want to know about how clean the house was or how well the women could cook, he simply wanted to know them. To be in the presence of beautiful women. So why do church women spend so much time doing the chores and "pleasing" everybody?
My next gripe is when women want to do a man's job. Now I am all for equality and bla bla bla but seriously, men want to be strong, to be capable and who are we to stop them?
Imagine, a society where women had the balance between physically caring for themselves to be attractive and having a calmness, compassion and strength that makes a beautiful soul. Imagine these women were valued not because of the things they did, but because of their very presence. Imagine our men were strong and capable. They wanted to care for, desire and love their ladies, and the ladies loved it. God created man and women to need each other. Adam needed Eve as much as she needed him. Women say they can do anything they don't need a man... that is pure selfishness because our men actually need us.
For so many years I have been afraid that I too may actually be beautiful. It was a word that I thought too strong to use for myself. I am learning however, that God created me, the Daughter of Eve to be a reflection of the persona of God himself. Woman is God's beauty in life form. Man is God's strength in life form. So you know what, I will not be afraid to be vulnerable, I will let people see a calm and passionate soul. I will allow people to enjoy my company, desire my presence so that I may be a true reflection of a loving God. And the cool thing is, every woman can be that without being a 1950's housewife. That is ultimately what a lot of us are scared of, that vulnerabilty and submission is only accomplished by being the good wife, good mother, get no say lady. In fact, you can be beautiful no matter what you do. Ask God what it means.
"Am I lovely?" says a little girl to her Daddy "Yes, my Princess, you are MORE than lovely!"
Car Troubles
Car troubles...
Well I am the subject of pay out this week because of a potentially costly mistake... For about a week or so I noticed that my car (Cecil) was making strange scratchy metal sounds and I couldn't work out why. So I took it to the mechanic (twice) and he drove it around but on both occasions it wouldn't make the noise, so he couldn't do anything about it. Then, mum asked me if I had been checking the oil and radiator cooler water and I said yes I had done that. HOWEVER Cevine (Sa-von) mum's fiance checked it and I had absolutely NO oil and NO water which was the reason for my noises.
It turns out that I checked it wrong. See I put the stick in (when the engine was cool) and I pulled it out, wiped it, put it back in and pulled it out again, but what I didn't know was that the little drizzle of oil down the side of the stick is not what you use to measure it. So there I was thinking that I was doing it right, and I wasn't!
I nearly killed Cecil. Oops. And then to make things worse, I was telling my story to the guy who drove us to the formal whilst we were waiting and he said "it's just as well you're pretty. You'll have to rely on your looks to get you through life."
I felt like a bimbo.
Well I am the subject of pay out this week because of a potentially costly mistake... For about a week or so I noticed that my car (Cecil) was making strange scratchy metal sounds and I couldn't work out why. So I took it to the mechanic (twice) and he drove it around but on both occasions it wouldn't make the noise, so he couldn't do anything about it. Then, mum asked me if I had been checking the oil and radiator cooler water and I said yes I had done that. HOWEVER Cevine (Sa-von) mum's fiance checked it and I had absolutely NO oil and NO water which was the reason for my noises.
It turns out that I checked it wrong. See I put the stick in (when the engine was cool) and I pulled it out, wiped it, put it back in and pulled it out again, but what I didn't know was that the little drizzle of oil down the side of the stick is not what you use to measure it. So there I was thinking that I was doing it right, and I wasn't!
I nearly killed Cecil. Oops. And then to make things worse, I was telling my story to the guy who drove us to the formal whilst we were waiting and he said "it's just as well you're pretty. You'll have to rely on your looks to get you through life."
I felt like a bimbo.
Monday, November 20, 2006
Formal Photos
Well I tried to post my formal photos on here and it just took ages, so if you'd like to see them, go to http://crazycassandra.spaces.live.com and you can see them!
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Finished
Well I am officially finished and may I say, it's a great feeling. The formal was great and I will post pictures soon, but I cried at the end of the night. I never thought I would, coz I have hated school since hmm, day 1 of year 8 and largely it was because of the people and the expectations... but for some reason I got so emotional and once the tears started I was a total wreck. How shamed! Arrrgh, anyway, I think my tears were a mixture of regret for not ceasing the opportunity for so many potentially great friendships, fear of the world out there, tiredness, relief and just because! I'm alright now, no more tears and I am so happy to be finished, I won't let myself have regrets and I'm excited for the future which I have no idea about! Yay!!!!
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Finishing...
Well, I have finished all of my high school exams and assignments forever. Geez this is a freakin' awesome feeling.
My graduation and formal are next Thursday (16/11) and I will certainly post pictures. I can't wait but until then, it's just chilling!
My graduation and formal are next Thursday (16/11) and I will certainly post pictures. I can't wait but until then, it's just chilling!
Sunday, November 05, 2006
The end is near
Oh my gosh... tomorrow is my last two exams EVER (or until I continue with further study...) but anyway, I am so excited!!!
Legal studies prepared essay, followed by audition pieces for drama. I can taste the freedom already!!!
Then after that, 2 more school days of doing nothing, then alternative program where I go to school once or twice and then graduation and then formal!!!
I want to scream in excitement!!!
I had to sing this song in primary school and it said "all good things must come to an end *piano bit* the river of time keeps moving on *piano bit* we must say goodbye my friend...."
I change the words "all bad things will come to an end *piano bit* the river of time keeps moving on *piano bit* we will say goodbye Kedronites..."
YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Legal studies prepared essay, followed by audition pieces for drama. I can taste the freedom already!!!
Then after that, 2 more school days of doing nothing, then alternative program where I go to school once or twice and then graduation and then formal!!!
I want to scream in excitement!!!
I had to sing this song in primary school and it said "all good things must come to an end *piano bit* the river of time keeps moving on *piano bit* we must say goodbye my friend...."
I change the words "all bad things will come to an end *piano bit* the river of time keeps moving on *piano bit* we will say goodbye Kedronites..."
YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
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