I feel sad. Don't really know why, but I do. I think it is because my knee is still in the brace. It has been 7 weeks, and was only meant to be 4 - 6 weeks. But it is going to be about another 2. Which makes it 9 weeks before I can bend my leg, which really sucks. I am sick of public transport because the seats are always taken, or if they are not, there isn't enough room to sit down properly. And it takes me twice as long to walk anywhere. I hate steps, which by the way, qut has thousands of. I am ALWAYS late to uni because of transport and mobility issues. Sick of being looked at and treated like an invalid. The brace is hot and yucky and I can't find many clothes to wear comfortably with it.
Really I am just disappointed because today I was hoping I could take the brace off, but plans changed. I feel sad.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Week 1
Well, tomorrow is beginning of week 2 of uni. So, everyone says it's a big change and I won't disagree. In my first week, I got lost and missed a tutorial, met stacks of new people - some I really like, some I really don't, and I have already had an overwhelmed moment.
I have realised that I love control and the feeling of independance. So this week I had a bit of a downer because I haven't been able to control the whole uni thing... I have minimal control over what time I get to uni, I can't control if the lecturers decide to publish our readings... I can't control anything and it really is driving me a little crazy! And not being able to walk properly because of my knee really makes me feel dependant... I can't drive and I can't really carry things myself etc. So I guess I have always known I have a need for control but I have only just been reawakened to it.
I know that everything will work out, my knee will get better (which it is, daily and that's a real encouragement to me because it was slow progress to begin with, but now it is going really fast) but for now, I just have to push through all the junk.
Aside from that, the whole uni thing is exciting... I am so glad I have started... I feel motivated because I actually want to be there. Trust me, nothing gets me up at 5am 4 days a week unless I really want to be awake for it!
I have realised that I love control and the feeling of independance. So this week I had a bit of a downer because I haven't been able to control the whole uni thing... I have minimal control over what time I get to uni, I can't control if the lecturers decide to publish our readings... I can't control anything and it really is driving me a little crazy! And not being able to walk properly because of my knee really makes me feel dependant... I can't drive and I can't really carry things myself etc. So I guess I have always known I have a need for control but I have only just been reawakened to it.
I know that everything will work out, my knee will get better (which it is, daily and that's a real encouragement to me because it was slow progress to begin with, but now it is going really fast) but for now, I just have to push through all the junk.
Aside from that, the whole uni thing is exciting... I am so glad I have started... I feel motivated because I actually want to be there. Trust me, nothing gets me up at 5am 4 days a week unless I really want to be awake for it!
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